the short story

It's never too late to stare at the stars and think. And that's  what I did with him last night. The frozen night, after a few glasses of wine. We were drunk, but we were in love with our own truth. And I don't dare to make any question about it. 

I won't see him anymore. I can't steal his eyes, I made a promise to him, I made a promise to myself: don't steal eyes. Never more.

And then I went home... to dry my wounds. 

I still miss classes but I'm not looking for any kind of prince anymore. And now, I'm pretty serious!

I'm happy, believe me. I don't know 'till when, but I know what I feel. 

I couldn't tell you why I need so much to be suffering all the time but I get the conclusion that I really need it, right? It's like everybody needs to drink and to feed, it's simple. And I'm not upset or worried or concerned about it. 

I have something inside that never lets me sleep at night. I have something really bad inside which makes me be so bad in this love stuff. It's just a conclusion it's not a suicide note. But I think I should write one someday. 

I'm sure I don't need any kind of help, I'm feeling fine. Just accepting that I'm not gonna get what I want. Piece of cake.

Currently reading...

Crime and Punishment is a book written by Dostoiévski and I have to tell you guys, I'm loving it. Ok, the story isn't developed up to know so much things about the plot but I think that the author makes the reading easier. There's not complicated words or something. Everything is completely understandable. 

Summarizing the whole thing: there's a guy called Raskólnikov (the hard part is reading the characters' names!), who commits a homicide. And he's running away from his past then he commits a second murder and things get really bad. In this story, Dostoiévski by the observation of real facts, will write a tale about guilt and punishment.

I'll be back to tell what it's my opinion about it. But I think it will take a little time, the book has 553 pages! I'll better go read now!

Well I need to write some words here because I can't let more empty spaces in my life. I'm tired of empty eyes, empty books and empty people. 

I'm okay, I just need to be quiet a little.

And I get so... whispering!

"I can live 

I can die

I can even touch the stars

Just to fit in your arms"

Well I don't know if these rhymes come to the head or to the heart. All I know is that I'm feeling a huge inspiration lately. Is that all because of that prince? No...he doesn't have a face. Does he have? I really don't know. I need little time to put my mind in a safe place. 

I know that I love your eyes, I love your smile and I just love the smell of your hair. It smells like a doll's hair . Like I told you, in the first day. 

Hello guys, I want a diary now

While I was taking a bath I thought "I have to keep practising my writing at least", and this way I can also improve the ability to think in English, which is very important too.

I was wondering about what should I write here and I guess that the answer is: everything! I can write about the books I'm reading, about the movies I'm watching, about the things I'm doing. It will be very great to my head, that it's so confused lately. But, for a reason that I don't know (well, actually I know this reason, this cute reason) I'm ok right now. And I could never do something different than what I'm doing now: writing! Each day that goes by I want more to express my feelings in my other blog Freak In The Sky and it's pretty cool like that. Real stories with a kind of fantasy around, things that I take from my head and heart and put in lines.

I saw a movie tonight, called The Butterfly Effect and gosh...I loved it! It made me cry, specially because that in the end, it started to play Oasis (Stop Crying Your Heart Out) and this song means so much to me. It was cool to be in the bed watching a good movie thinking about nothing.

It was rainning when the dawn broke and it wasn't a good start for my day. But, even in this conditions I went so happy to my job, reading the Antichrist in the bus (this is one thing that only Freak does!!!) and it was cool. I work hard but I love my job and the people who work with me. That's a important thing. And I'm not being an apple-polish because of this! =D

I slept almost all afternoon but it was ok. I'm happy in my dreams.

Now I'm here... happy in front of the computer with a wish to steal the world to me! And this sensation is incredible! I'm doing what I love the most: listening good music and surfin' on the internet.

I promise I'll come back!

ps: I miss classes! And I'm not kidding!